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Covid Taught Me How to Grow Up

A year filled with tremendous regret, missed opportunities, and overall disaster: 2020

Read that twice {Wall Art from Wynwood, Miami}

I was stuck in quarantine for three long weeks in November. I missed my favorite holiday, Black Friday, along with the first three weeks of my new seasonal job. Yet, that unfortunate situation doesn’t come close to making the list of the top 5 worst situations I’ve been in this year.

Scary huh?

Let’s just say it’s been a year.

When I hit rock bottom I started to pay more attention to the people in my life. How they showed up for me, if at all. The worst situation I’ve been in this year goes unsaid. Only a handful of people know about it, but even they didn’t understand the full scope of the situation.

For awhile I was able to ignore it, pretend nothing happened, and that seemed to work. Then spring break came along and I lived my best life in Miami.

March in ~Miami~ AKA my prime

Still, I found myself in questionable situations. Me, too drunk, with men, too eager. Not to mention the fact that I felt invincible in Miami. I definitely made some bad decisions, but they were all fine, fixable.

Once I came back from Miami I dealt with my shit. Then, classically, we were sent into a full Covid lockdown.

Honestly, the summer gave me a lot of time to reflect. I learned how to grow up during lockdown. When I came back to school for the fall semester there wasn’t much of a going-out scene. Well, there was nothing. By having no options to go out and make bad choices, I was finally making all of the right ones.

Now I’ve learned to invest my time more thoughtfully in the people in my life. This includes men, friends, and family.

The thing about 2020 is that I learned a lot about myself, but I learned more about other people.

I learned who my real friends are.