A Love Letter to My Crushes
There's been a lot...
Crush #1
You had big brown eyes, and swoopy hair
The kind Justin Bieber had back in the day
You’d push me on the swings at recess and give me your pudding cups at lunch
We had those stupid nicknames for each other, that we’d shout on the bus
I’d write our names together in my notebook and draw little hearts around it
Hoping you’d feel the same way about me
We were kids back then
With popsicle stained lips and scrapes on our knees
I didn’t know anything about love yet
But I knew how I felt when you looked at me
Crush #2
You were the first guy I wore makeup for
Red lipstick,
Black mascara,
Bright pink blush
You were the new kid in town
So different from all the other boys I had gotten used to
Funny, kind, and smart
No wonder everyone was obsessed with you
I never stood a chance
I’d ‘accidentally’ bump into you in the hallways
Just so I could say hi
I’d ask you for help on the homework that I already finished
Just to talk to you more
It was pathetic
When prom came around I waited for you to ask me
And waited
And waited
Like I said, I never stood a chance
Crush #3
My feelings for you came out of nowhere
One second you were just the guy in my chemistry class
And the next second you were something more
It was the end of senior year
Not a good time to form a crush
But that didn’t stop me
I’d steal your pencils
And tease you at lunch
And secretly hope you liked me too
Graduation came and everything changed
But my feelings for you never faded
Crush #4
Everything about you was different
You were a college boy and I was away from home for the first time
What else is there to say?
You had perfect hair
And a big smile
I was hooked
Sitting next to you in class during orientation
Stumbling into your dorm room after late night parties
It was so easy to fall for you
It was one of those crushes I knew I’d regret
But in that moment, I couldn’t care less