A Love Letter to My Crushes

There's been a lot...


Crush #1


You had big brown eyes, and swoopy hair


The kind Justin Bieber had back in the day

You’d push me on the swings at recess and give me your pudding cups at lunch


We had those stupid nicknames for each other, that we’d shout on the bus


I’d write our names together in my notebook and draw little hearts around it


Hoping you’d feel the same way about me


We were kids back then


With popsicle stained lips and scrapes on our knees


I didn’t know anything about love yet


But I knew how I felt when you looked at me












Crush #2


You were the first guy I wore makeup for

Red lipstick,


Black mascara,


Bright pink blush


You were the new kid in town


So different from all the other boys I had gotten used to


Funny, kind, and smart


No wonder everyone was obsessed with you


I never stood a chance


I’d ‘accidentally’ bump into you in the hallways


Just so I could say hi


I’d ask you for help on the homework that I already finished


Just to talk to you more


It was pathetic


When prom came around I waited for you to ask me


And waited


And waited


Like I said, I never stood a chance







Crush #3


My feelings for you came out of nowhere


One second you were just the guy in my chemistry class


And the next second you were something more


It was the end of senior year


Not a good time to form a crush


But that didn’t stop me


I’d steal your pencils


And tease you at lunch


And secretly hope you liked me too


Graduation came and everything changed


But my feelings for you never faded